Anxiety Disorder – It’s not all in my head!

Hi everyone! If you’re here reading along, you might be one of the many people in the world who suffer from a mental health condition such as anxiety, depression, stress or post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) to name a few. It’s certainly more common than you realise and not something that anyone should be embarrassed about. Yet, so many people, continue to suffer in silence, rather than seek support for fear of being judged or labeled as having a ‘mental health’ condition.

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Just so you can put a face to the name – this is me. My name is Nerine and I started this site as a way to help myself and other people that also suffer from a mental health condition.

For many years I didn’t know why I felt the way I did or what was causing it, until the day I was finally diagnosed with several forms of anxiety disorder and depression.

I was a strong and healthy woman, a Wife and Mum of two and had a great career in the military.

But, over many years I was finding it more and more difficult to socialize with friends, do things together as a family, travel, function in the workplace or even just go to the local shops to do my grocery shopping.

What was that wave of uncomfortable feelings, thoughts and emotions that kept showing it’s ugly head at the most inappropriate times in my life. Why couldn’t I just enjoy myself and not have to disappear to the restroom or isolate myself from everyone? Where did these racing thoughts come from and why do I feel like I’m losing control of my body? This is very real, it’s not all in my head!

But, why was this happening to me now? I had achieved so many things in my life and was happy. Yet, here I was not even able to cook dinner for my family, talk to friends or family interstate or even leave my house. Heck, even looking out the window to see what the weather was like outside would result in me having a panic attack.

It got to a point in my life that the anxiety disorder and depression felt like it had taken control of my life and that strong, healthy, career woman, mum and wife had totally disappeared. It was debilitating and a life I no longer wanted to live!

Fast forward to today, my life is somewhat different and not the path I ever envisaged for myself. It’s been a long journey that I tried to keep hidden from everyone, even my own family and friends. But, it’s truly exhausting. The continual excuses why I couldn’t go out for dinner or have coffee with a friend or even just do things together with my hubby and kids, for fear of having a panic attack was just too embarrassing to admit to anyone.  After all, who wants to be labelled as having a ‘mental health’ condition.

It’s only because I have received the right support and treatment for my conditions that I have a better understanding now than I did in those early years. This wasn’t something that I could ‘fix’ by myself. Well, I did try for a very long time, telling myself that I was strong and that I didn’t need medication. But this wasn’t a cold or viral infection that would be better in a few days or weeks with some bed rest. This was way out of my control to just ‘fix it’ and ‘move on’ which was the advice I quite often received from those closest to me. 

Attending counselling, group therapy and receiving the appropriate medical support, is how I’ve learnt so much about my conditions and I am practicing various strategies in my every day life. One strategy that I love is coloring, which is why this site came about in the first place.

You see, I’m a ‘creative’ type of person and love all kinds of crafts and photography. I was coloring each day to take my mind off negative thoughts and to help calm my mind and body. But, I then took it a step further and started creating my own series of coloring books for adults. I needed a coloring book for me, not one of my kid’s coloring books I’d had in the cupboard from when they were little. I figured if coloring could help me zone out and just be engrossed in what I was coloring then surely it would be great therapy for others too.

This is when the ‘Color Your Way To Happy’ series of Adult Coloring Books was born, because I wanted to create something more specific for the people like myself, battling with anxiety. I now have nine Adult Coloring Books published and my favorite is ‘Color Your Way Through Anxiety. Color Your Way Through AnxietyIn this book I included positive sayings and words of encouragement to focus on while you color.

So in a nutshell, on this site I will be sharing information about new coloring book releases, tips on coloring and coloring supplies as well as tips on anxiety, depression and stress relief. I’m by no means an expert on mental health conditions, I’m just sharing with you my personal experiences and knowledge I’ve learnt so far.

If you would like to join me on my journey and how I’m living with my anxiety disorders and depression, through my coloring books, I would love for you to subscribe to my weekly e-newsletter. It’s FREE to join and each week you will receive a coloring page to your email inbox. You’ll also receive a copy of my sample coloring e-book (PDF version) of designs from some of my books published so far. You can subscribe right here!

Nerine 🙂

P.S. Click here to see the Color Your Way To Happy series of Adult Coloring Books

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